Company

Lunch and tea always taste better with company for dinner.
Today's going to be a very long day.

"I mean really, how protected can our hearts be? All that shields it is a case of bones, that are so easily broken."

And we think we're made of steel.

500

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500th post guys!
After keeping this domain for 4 over years, i've finally reached my 500th post! I wanted to post a good one obviously not with 4 spastic faces of me but it'll do for now cause lately, time hasn't been on my side. My parents are coming back in a bit they're getting us salted egg crabs for dinner! Eggcite! Anyway i just wanna say thank you to everyone who reads this space. Really appreciate all the comments and thoughts. I never quite knew what inspired me to even start blogging but its become a habit i think. Oh what am i saying, sometimes its such a chore but when you vent for the right reasons, blogger seems to be your best friend. My relationship with blogging is definitely both hot and cold but i like it that way. Where else will you post all the million and one photos of yourself or the amazing you dinner you had last night? Or of course, the things that inspire you. I t think i've grown as a blogger although i don't fancy the animosity of wearing my heart on my sleeve so i leave bits and pieces or moments where i pen down my anger and frustrations.

Also i just realised that throughout my archives, apart from revolving around me, this space has also revolved around manly one guy and also my entries of disappointment are an unlimited flow reading it now would just make me cry so no, i am not going to do that haha. I'll read them all one day, the memories in all of them are to great to ever delete. Thank you everyone who contributed to the memories too. 4-5 years, from 14-19. Denise you're old.

This is so heartfelt haha!
Alright i have much to do, so once again thank you!
XOXO

You or i make change

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Past few days have been fun. Wasn't really home the whole time. My mind's been doing a lot of reflective thinking, the results seem receptive so far. I'm trying to finish my roll of film on my lomo so i get it developed! I haven't really used my dslr lately cause i haven't done anything really exciting. Had lunch at la petite yesterday. Spent the past two days over at Sean's. I never knew WoW had its own wiki and how interesting and diverse the world was, I never knew the existance of lotus caramel biscuits which taste so good they melt in your mouth. He cooked us supper while i hogged the tv for awhile, took a good shower before bed and i can't remember what we were laughing about but we couldn't stop. Or at least me, i must have lost him somewhere along the way. I realise i've changed and sometimes I miss the old me. But they say change can be good. Could this be what i've always needed?

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black or gold

Sometimes you try to ignore the inevitable even though you know it'll come back for you.

I hate how you wish something wasn't but then maybe its is. How you're unsure about something yet at the same time you know it could possibly be true. How you want to speak your mind but you can't yet it pushes itself up your throat while you almost constipate holding it down. How lonely in thought you are when you don't quite know who to tell and when.
Things never stay the same.
You wish they will but they can't.
I try not to put much thought into it but ignoring it consciously so far isn't doing me any justice. Ignorance is bliss?
Talk it out and you'll just feel better.

Anyway on a totally and complete good note, i passed my FTT!
Sometimes i wonder if my entries even make sense haha.

Kafka On Shore - Haruki Murakami

"Somtimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, this omnious dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isnt something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. The storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There is no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up in to the sky like pulverised bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine."

I don't know why but i am so intrigued by this.

I've been feeling so couped lately i'm hoping tomorrow morning will fly by with great results in return. I keep rereading texts even though i know its context. Recently i've been so anal about people asking the wrong questions and expecting the right answers. Sometimes I wish the right answers came to me easily so it'd spare me time and a lot of moments where i dwell in deep mind tumbling thoughts.

Got to get ready for dinner. Will update soon!

So deep like the Atlantic

Its effing bored at 401am. What am I do to.
I took a nap from 10 to 12 and now i'm wide awake listening to remixes while Sean mocks me for my recent favouritism in black music. I'm blinded by my dslr flash cause i decided to camwhore but gave up half way cause the shutter beep was too loud and besides, who camwhores at 4 in the am. Life been's alright, i'm gonna keep on the low. No more drama for me. I didnt really annouce to the whole world but i'm attached again and hopefully this time, things won't get disastrous. Believe me, i wouldn't let it happen even if it slapped me right between the eyes.

Well i have theory practice later, yawn. My Final theory's this Sat morning i'm pretty nervous. I hate how even the theory is based on a manual car. I took auto so whatever. Noob boob? Hahaha. The friggin clutch is annoying. I think theoratically, I can drive a manual car. But its so much to juggle auto is easier! I got to drvie Sean's car last Sat. I almost crashed the car with my awesome reversing! But overall i'm not bad a driver okay, everyone liked how we almost died HAHA. I like driving in the middle of roads especially if there are no cars.
Okay pictures of my distracting face just so this journal doesn't look so wordy!

I think sometimes i need someone whose not so serious, someone who doesn't argue about what a star is. Just someone to say stupid things to and get retarded with.

Then again, intellect amuses me.

Alright bye!

Tell her

"Tell her why she’s perfect for you. Pick her up and pretend like you’re going to throw her in the pool. She’ll scream and fight you, but secretly she’ll love it. Protect her. Hold her hand when you talk to her. Look at her like she’s the only girl you ever want to be with. When she least expects it, pull her in close and kiss her hard. Tell her she looks beautiful. Tickle her, even if she says stop. Get her mad, then kiss her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her. Give her piggy-back rides. Kiss her forehead. Be slow. Don’t push anything. Make her feel loved. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her; tell her."

Aww.

Has it ever occured to you that you're fighting the wrong person?
Not that i'm high and mighty but I'd whoop your ass anyday if i had to. I don't hate you. So do everyone a favour and not butt into our space. I'm tired having to worry all the time, looking out for myself. If you need him so badly, please step forward and claim your prize. I'd gladly throw in a smile, a blue ribbon and rave enthusiastically. I'm honestly done worry myself bald cause you're simply not worth the worry. Maybe your intentions are merely small, but don't you know that sometimes you just need to know when to back off.

Talk about being selfish to gain your happiness. Well maybe its time i stopped being Mary shitting Poppins and stepped up a little.

eventful?

I had such a blast out today!
I was about to type something but my mind just went blank. Anyway life's been okay. Things seem to be looking up a little though i'm gonna try not to pin hopes, most importantly not to have much expectations. I've had a couple of songs playing on the repeat the past couple of days to keep me company. My friends and i are planning to hit the gym tomorrow to shed the macdonalds i feel in my bum or rather in my arms and thighs haha. I think i've gotten heavier over the months and i'm desperately trying to keep in shape although bumming around can be so fun and pigging out stuffing your face with food keeps you afloat its so unhealthy! Imagine if i were to eat salad the rest of my life starting tomorrow. Oh frick. I think its impossible for us girls who are on the bigger side (structure wise) to really be skinny. I mean no matter how skinny you are, your frame isn't gonna shrink either. Plus we'd look really off with our shoulder blades sticking out as if they're gaga's shoulder pads. We get those days where we feel so bloated. Just wear something baggy or hide behind your specs! Hahaha. What advice, i'm just rambling. Every girl should feel pretty, even in a huge tshirt and bed hair. 50's too unreasonable. Let's see, maybe 55?
Hahaha wish me luck!

Who doesn't love 'em hotnspicy drumlets!

These were all i was willing to resize. The rest are on facebook! Hopefully my trip to the gym tomorrow will be eventful! :>
I'm gonna turn in first then. Night readers!